it's with a heavy heart that i'm writing this. sobs. today i brought my rabbit to another vet to get her xray done. Her vet does not have the equipment to do a digital xray. apparantly, there are two kinds of xrays and this type is actually more sensitive and thus, more suitable for small animals like rabbits. i've been procrastinating about the visit as i can't face the reality that my rabbit is really sick and will most probably need an operation which could put her in a lot of pain and worse still, with no guarantee that she would get better. but i finally brought her to the vet coz her sneezing has not stopped and her tearing seems to be getting worse. And just the night before the vet visit, she stopped eating her vegetables for no known reason. that really frightened me and i got quite depressed and concerned about it.

so i finally brought her to the animal recovery centre at bukit timah green dale avenue. and they took her xrays. at first, the nurse took a wrong xray at her chest when the xray was supposed to be done for her teeth/face. but the mistake turned out to be sort of a blessing in disguise as the vet after examining the xrays of her chest, discovered that there was a lump in her left lung/chest. you can see the xray beneath and you will see that small circle on the xray.. Not only was the lump discovered, but after an xray of her head as well, the vet also noticed that her left side seemed unnaturally swollen although he could not physically see or feel the swelling. if you squint hard at the picture below, you can see a semi circle above her cheek bone that looks like a shadow...

sigh i so felt like screaming in the xray room after hearing the news. but all i could say was 'oh dear/ oh my'... despite the bad news of her health, she is such a sweet bunny and it makes me sad that she might have to suffer. the nurse even praised her and said how cooperative she was in taking the xray. although she struggled initially when the two nurses had to hold her down and turn her from side to side, the nurse said that she later cooperated with them so well and took some really good xrays. and even now, she is sitting beside me, with her eyes semi-closed and falling asleep. i just feel really horrible. i really pray that she will get through this without much pain. i can't bear to see her in pain. but neither can i bear the thought of ever putting her to sleep. sigh.. what would i do without my brown ball of fur?

oh well, now she's eating the remainder of her veg from last night. her eye for now seems to have stopped tearing and she seems to be regaining some of her appetite. she'll be visiting her vet again to discuss about the xrays in details and what will be the course of action we'll take next. sigh... i can't imagine what it'll be like when i do have children. but this is good training ground at least....