marriage is such a tricky business. i've heard a few individuals proclaim it as the one thing that has been perfected in their lives and what wonderful bliss they have been enjoying since they married. I don't think i have enough experience to disagree with them. But i would like to think that when they do say such things, i don't think they are lying either. I believe that in their marriage, such people make a conscious decision to see what is wonderful in their relationship. As for those bugbears, they see them as part of the painfully beautiful process of being perfected by the grace of God - the imperfect that magnifies His grace and providence in their marriage. I think you can liken this to most aspects of our lives. sure our bosses are cranky and demanding and the system that we live in and breath in is so rank with corruption and depravity that it threatens to suck the life out of us. And even as all this is true, we still live each day with the hope that He has placed in our hearts like a guarantee, a comfort aflame in the darkness.

you don't need to read in between the lines that tonight i will need some of that divine grace to see what i can't see. and you know in times like these when i'm not feeling too good and feel like turning back, i know that turning back will only lead me to more suffering. so time and time again, i repeatedly say to Him that i trust in Him, believe unto Him. and that is enough to bring some comfort. it's really that simple.