finally back here. somehow feeling more inspired to blog in delifrance than at home. the weather here is just so unbearable for the last few days. it's baking hot in the morning and by the evening, it is ... still the same. Was it Lee Kuan Yew who said that the air conditioner was the greatest invention that modern man had ever invented? And i do recall someone saying that if we never had air condition in the tropics (or in this part of Asia), we'll never advance as a society because everyone will be having a siesta by mid afternoon as it is too hot to do anything.

well, or at least that's my hare-brained idea about history - "is it cool enough to be civilised?" Well someone did argue in a published book about how poverty is due to genetics and how that explains why current efforts to put an end to poverty in the world will never work. So who knows, if all of us developed and pursued our hare-brained ideas to the fullest, we'll have accomplished at least "something" in this life. And that was just the thought i was mulling over when i drove over to northpoint to drop off hub's working shirts at the dry cleaners. On a personal level, if i had pursued each of my writing and seen it through completely, it's true that very few (if any) would amount to anything but at least there just could be that one piece of writing that will be.

Hmm.. anyway, today work is more bearable. After overcoming the initial urges to skive off, the body becomes more conditioned for work even in such an unconducive environment. not only is the weather hot, but giving consultations and repeating the same advise ad nauseum for intermittent periods of half an hour can be quite brain-numbing. i'm grateful that at least those i've seen do realise that they can improve by a lot more and that makes me hopeful that they will eventually do ok for the exams. I'm still thinking what i want to do after my contract is over. I will certainly be doing something related to teaching but i don't know whether i should...
- stay in the same school
- change to a different school, teach a different subject. i don't mind a different teaching level. but i will like to finally do what i want to for the longest time.. that is to teach literature.
- travel overseas and teach there. work out all my mortgage payment and bills. move over for at most two years.
- have a baby? and do all these things? or do something less challenging?

well, i'll leave this post hanging like that. i'm just thinking now should i do more work or just take a break since i'm back home now... and losing my motivation to continue typing..